I'm terribly upset today. Really really upset. I am so disappointed with myself. I was supposed to hit my tier this week, but just because I didnt check properly, my transactions got parked under others. For those hu dun understand this term, it simply means, other people get my sales. I am super duper upset. I dun understand why, I did check. I really did a thorough check, but I juz dun understand why. When I saw my transaction got parked under others, my heart really sanked. I have been trying realli hard. Last week I tried to hit, but I didnt. This week finally I managed to hit, yet transaction got parked under others. First it is the urgent accounts cnt be proceed, next is transactions parked under others. Its not 1, but 3! The amount is big also.
WHY WHY WHY!

I dun realli care much about the incentive. It is the tier that I WANT to hit DESPERATELY. I have been here for quite some time already..and I have not been consistent in my sales. I know that. I really want to hit my tier. I really really want to produce results. I was so happy this morning..so naive thinking all will go thru smoothly. So happy for team lunch. But after my team lunch, the world juz came crashing down. Transaction parked under others. I became freaking upset..really really upset. I feel I reaalli disappoint Deborah. I noe she has been pushing all out for me. I noe that Garima and Deborah are fighting realli hard for my case.

I sat down and I stared at my screen, and I just felt, " Nevermind if they let my transactions parked under others. Nevermind if they take away these few sales from me. I still have plenty to go. They can't take all away from me. " To be really frank, I was kind of emotional today, and I just felt teary at those moments. It set my determination to bring in more sales. I must bring in more sales to cover those transactions. As I felt more teary, I just sat there and kept on calling more customers. I told myself, "I MUST bring in MORE sales to cover those". From then on, I must work even harder, and I must realli be extremely careful with my transactions.

To be really honest with myself, I still have yet to get over it. I mean..I just felt realli unjustified when we fought so hard, putting in so much efforts to bring in the sales and then the transaction got parked under others. People always say..tiny little efforts bring a long way. For me? Tiny little efforts bring a long way. Yes. A long way to reach my tier. But nevermind. At the end of the day, I will hit the tier. I will reach that goal.

I will be strong.
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