I'm just so disappointed over person "X".
The disappointment that I experience is really beyond words.
It never occurred to me that someone would just give up a 5 year friendship to accomodate a new relationship with person "Y".
Its just too heartbreaking to receive such shocking news..and it just makes me wonder.."What exactly does friendship means?" Does it really means shoving friends one side just to please person "Y"?

I have long predicted such moves by person "Y". But I never predicted person "X" would make such a decision to give up on our friendship. Perhaps, I was too confident about how strong my friendship was with person "X". But, ultimately, I still lost to the moves by person "Y". I didn't know that losing weight brings more attention and sympathy. Blame myself for being so useless, unable to lose so much weight, that's y I didn't manage to keep a friend. I'm sorry for being too sarcastic, but I've already kept some more words in my heart, not adding them to the entry..like despicable..oops, did I just say tt?

I am not angry, frankly speaking. My heart is just filled and has been overflowed with feelings of disappointment. I can forgive person "X" for being so blind to love. But I can't forgive person "X" for losing own set of principles. Aren't we holding our own fate in our hands? Why is someone else deciding the friends for you?

I could clearly remember parents of person "Z" dislike person "X", and doesn't want them to keep in contact. Did person "Z" gave person "X" up?Or did person "Z" continue to spray care and concern for person "X"? I believe all of us have an answer to that.

Together with person "Z", we waited so long for person "X" to come back from "F" country. We continuously wished for person "X" happiness. Now that person "X" has returned, we thought we could have more time together, sharing good moments like we had in the past. I guess we could have expected too much. Expecting too much brings a bigger disappointment.

For now, I just do not want to acknowledge a friend who does not want to acknowledge me.
Leaving this post today, is just a simple question for person "X" to answer. If your person "Y" starts to dislike many of your friends, I really hope you will see the "light" one day. If you continue to discard your friendships, I can't imagine a phonebook with blank entries.
Blogged @ 9:22 AM
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Goodness. I just realised that I'm only left with 3 days of student privileges. I'll be graduating on the 23rd of may, which will be this coming friday at 3pm. After that, no more student meals..=(
Non-student life currently for me, is basically equivalent to no life. I think its because I'm in the hotel line, and I work shift hours, I wake up when no one is awake, and reaches home when everyone is aslp. After work, I would be really tired, and doesn't want to go anywhere anymore. During my offdays, I usually sleep like a log, wake up in late afternoons, have my brunch in slow pace, and before I knew it, sun has set, and its almost time to sleep again.

I'm still under deep deep consideration as to whether I want to stay in the Ritz. I'm just starting to like some staff here. The nicer they are to me, the more guilty I am. Prakash has taught me so many things, he never fails to answer my queries. Sicoya is another helpful girl, whom I always talk with. I have my cute piglet deanne, whom I always pour my heart to, especially with regards to work. I just made a new fren, Aga, who is a lobby ambassador. She saw me being pushed and bullied by the bossy graduate, and she just stood up for me, and she always cums up to me and asks if I need any help.

Stupid Winnie is getting confused..If you want quit just quit lar..can u all stop being so nice to me..

To be frank, I would like to get a job that has fixed hours, so I can see my family members when I'm back from work. I really miss my karate people, my B1 and B3, I just wana go back for the lessons. I've always dreamt about having sports lessons after work, I wana take up ballet and some yoga lessons. Now, I'm so far away from my dream because my schedule is so inflexible, and I always get the next week's schedule 3 days before.

Is this the kind of life that I want to lead?
Blogged @ 6:17 AM
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I've been so tired lately..been working and working. I really miss my days slacking at home in the past, doing some baking, watching youtube, talking to my xiao niu (mummy). I've been on nite shifts..I reach home ard 3am, and all my family members are sound aslp. When I wake up, my family members are already out at work. =(
Today is my off day..wanted to go collect the grad suit with B1..but I woke up so late..and she alrd finish karate gg to watch movie with her lan shi fu. Hmm..she asked me to join her..but i gaf excuse say dun wan spend so much on movie ticket.(But actually is dun wan to disturb them hanky panky in cinemia) Hehe!!! Better stop here..if not my B1 gona gif me her formidable hook kick..T.T....
So I slacked my day off at the civic centre starbucks..borrowed my fave zhang xiao xian story books..and read them while enjoying my green tea frappe and new york cheese cake. What an enjoyment! I must make an effort to enjoy myself on my offday. Afterall standing whole day on so formal blazer attire, 4inches footwear, heavy makeup and serious attitude, I must learn to relax!!
My new nickname given by prakash.. Ms kanchiong.
I shall learn to cool myself even if the sky falls.
Blogged @ 8:45 AM
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