Mood rating scale: Happy-unhappy, 1-10. Score: 10.

Today I'm extremely upset today. When I went to work today, my supervisor tracy looked at me seriously and said, "Winnie, I have a bad news for you." My heart was thumping really hard then. I was devastated when she said, "I've been transferred to centrepoint." I was really really upset when she told me that..she told me that she wldn't want to bring me over coz there dun require any part-timers as the sales there is very poor. I can't stay in tangs too, as the new supervisor will be bringing her own gang here. So..where will I be?

I feel very upset because I belong no where, neither tangs nor centrepoint. My tears just flowed down..I feel really agonised. Tracy is the main victim. 3 years back, when the fragrance brand narciso is newly started in tangs, nobody want to cum to tangs for this challenge. Everyone felt that its a new brand, what if the sales is bad?Tracy was forced to come to tangs, but she laid a condition that she wanted to be transferred back to tangs after the brand sales is stabilised. But now, they didn't keep up to the promise because the current manager dumb kelvin said that the previous manager who promised her has already resigned and its none of his business! But the thing is, when the promise was made, the retail executive joanne was around and she agreed to it. Now joanne didnt want to keep up the promise because she dun wan other ppl to be unhappy coz tracy is always earning so much in this store.

Fact is fact, why are they always distorting it? Promise was made by the manager, and the manager represents the company. So it should be the company's decision. Regardless whether the manager has resigned or not, the promise shouldn't be broken still. As a part-timer, I have worked for 3 years, since i entered poly. I always try my best not to get involved in their politics, but sometimes, its inevitable. This time, I consider myself as unlucky.The kelvin and new supervisor are of the same gang and they hate tracy. Kelvin asked tracy to go to centrepoint and said she cld perhaps be transferred to the new store opp tangs. Tracy was right to have rebutted him. She said "What if u resign?Then wouldn't it be the same? Cheated one more time?"

Jenny from Calvin Klein wanted to pull me over to her brand. But what's worst is, the dumb kelvin wun let me go because Calvin Klein is from another division brand. So, Kelvin would rather let me resign on my own, he still wun let me cross division. Like wad they say, the nicer way, "fei shui bu liu wai ren tian", the evil way, "I dun wan u also cnt take". Aren't they nice? Haiz..3 years in tangs, I've really grown up and learnt quite abit. Thanks to luxasia, i manage to feed myself and pay for my expenses in poly life. Thanks to tracy, who always been kind to me and gave me a flexible schedule. Thanks to Jimmy, who has always give me some sales when i'm short of some to hit the target. Thanks to jenny, pei sheh who always offer me food and chitchat when I'm bored. Thanks to roselind, who always gif me a big hug and call me princess when i'm sad. Thanks to kelvin and joanne, who forced me to quit. Evil hypocrites, I really hate them to the core now.

If this hadn't take place, I would have stayed in tangs till i go for US trip. Now, I'm really lost and duno where to go. I duno which job i cld take on. I'm still very unhappy abt quitting tangs. I will definitely miss selling my perfumes, Issey miyake, Jean Paul Gaultier and Narciso Rodriguez. I haven't got the mental preparation of quitting. I only planned to quit like 4 months later. But now its really fast forward so much. I will miss my days at weekends working at tangs with tracy and jimmy, though i always complain hw tired I am. I really really hope that when I wake up tmr, everything is just a dream.

I'm left with 2 more work days in tangs. End of the month, 26th and 27th of jan. I will definitely treasure the last 2 days.

Someday sometime, I will get over this. Which my tears will stop flowing, the pain in my heart will heal.
Blogged @ 8:33 AM
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2007 has already ended. What's left is all bits and pieces of memories that I have gathered.
If I were to collate a top 10 memorable events in 2007..they would be..
1. Mum's operation for tumour removal (It was really a heartaching period for me. Cried every night till the doc finally declared my mum as healthy. Seeing her in pain is worst than any other thing I experienced. Now I pray each day, for her to be healthy and be by my side. I promise I wun make her angry or be angry with her.)
2. Student intenship programme (Doing SIP in school has deepened my understanding with the school and the working staff. Though I really felt like a slave (work like hell with no pay), but I really learnt alot. Learnt everything about ice-cream and its production, as well as popsicles (ice-lolli)! 3 mths may seemed like a long period, but learning each day makes each day worthwhile.)
3. Karate gang (I'm really glad I took part in karate, which really widened my social circle. I got to know more frens who are really nice. I also got to know fun ppl from ngee ann poly, like ben, steven the lao ren, xiu min, michael and many more! I really enjoyed the karaoke sessions with u all! Hee! TP ppl are nice too..not to mention..janice my practice partner, shu hui the loan shark, edwin the noisy fellow..blah blah blah. Ah yes..the karate camp wasnt really a success..but i enjoyed it still.)
4. First gold medal in life (I had a gold medal for table-tennis before, but its not an individual category. Now i own 1 myself, the karate gold medal..hehe..yeah..! Its a below 48kg weight category, individual fighting kumitae gold medal. I also got a individual bronze medal for my weight category for kata. The competition was held on 16 dec, 2007, a joint competition with ngee ann poly. Though I got them with my real hard work and sweat, but I am very grateful to my sensei, Mr michael sim; Alycia the b1 who always guide me along in kicks, punches and kata; Yijia the B3, who always recap kata with me; black belt seniors Gim kai and big nicholas who first intro me to karate..i think the list can go on and on. I know its not hong xing da jiang.SHhh..)
5. Bananas in pyjamas (My best frens in poly..Alycia the b1, Yijia the b3 and I'm the b2! Hoho..they really brighten my days in poly. Love to hang out with them..follow them ard like a pest and nag at them always for they always cnt stop munching tidbits. Really love my 2 bananas, and hope to keep in touch still even after grad. For now, I will still continue to harass them..haha!)
6. Only him (Won't forget the unforgettable days with him. 2007 was a busy year, which we spent really little time together. Met up like once in 2 mths? Still, I really enjoyed the chalet in sept. Also enjoyed my afternoons at his house watching the continuous episodes of la bi xiao xin, as well as all the movies, lunches and dinners with him. My first turkey with him..and so on. I hope we will spend more time together in 2008 together.)
7. Decision decision (2008 US trip! I'm really excited. I'm sure felicia is too. Will be going to felicia to US in 2008, june. We will be enjoying our lives there for 3 whole mths! Admiring us? Hee..but wait. Before that, look at how skinny i am now (like real), scrimping and saving each cents for the trip. I really try my best to save 500 bucks each mth till i grad, then 1000 each mth for 3 working mths. I hope to bring at least SG6500 there. I'm on a tight saving plan, so now everyone knows, so stop inviting me out if there is anything to do with cash outflow okay?)
8. Major project (I really hope to wash this memory away. Can someone please help me to flush this out? I really find this sickening. Its really a fun project, starting a cafe from scratch, and building it to a cafe with consistent edible foods. This is my major project. It may seemed really fun, but pls dun get cheated. There's a hell lot of things to do, alot than u think. I really get nightmares over it. Because it is worth 9 credit units, I need this to grad. I'm still working hard on it. Its really a difficult project, when there's more ppl involved in it, like the sch director, head of applied sciences. Duh!
9. Sickening freak (When I mention this, I'm sure it ring a bell. I'm referring to the molester. It still gives me goosebumps when i thought of this. Now i dun dare to go to the upper deck of the bus to sit. I stay on the lower deck for my 168 long bus journey. Oh well, I'll just be more careful and use my punches and kicks if i meet another. But hope i wun!)
10. Him. Past tense. ( This isn't supposed to be here..not till the very last hour of 2007. Someone told me at the last hour of 2007 that he still likes me, and hope to have a chance to love and dote on me. I used to like him in the past, but its really a past tense. I have my blessings for him, and i hope he will get over it soon. )
*** Thank you 2007. You have been wonderful.***
Blogged @ 8:15 AM
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