Mood report saes: Unhappy..
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It seems quite some time since i last blog. Todae i blog wif a bad news to share. This morning, i received an sms frm yee kien, she told mi tt mi sec sch mate, zhixiang passed away. It was realli shocking when i received this news. I realli dun believe it. He's onli 17. Not even past a century. He's gone just like tt. What i heard was, the blood vessel frm his brain burst. I realli couldn't accept this fact. He was just fine n lively during september, when i last saw him at the tchers' dae celebration. Its just 2 mths..n now he's gone. Everything is so sudden...everything is unpredictable. In mi memory, last year we were still working towards the O's..last year, he was stil chasing mi junior..last year, he was stil sitting behind mi talking to mi during chinese lesson.Its just 1 year..and now everything evolves as history.
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Realli pondering todae..if i leave the world just like tt..would anione be sad for mi? Would anione weep for mi? The answer seems uncertain. Perhaps, those ppl hu hated mi so much would probably clap their hands and laugh. How about those who spent days of memories with mi?Would they shed any tear for mi absence in this living world? I'm realli afraid of death. Sae i'm timid or wad, I'm just me. I'm afraid of death. I fear of the dae i could no longer breathe. I fear of the dae i could no longer see mi family. I fear of the dae i could no longer walk and smile and live as per normal. I'm afraid i would lose all the memories i gathered for mi whole life. I'm realli afraid. Death, seems so near yet so far. If i die one one dae, would mi frens rmb mi? Would they juz shed a tear and after tt juz forget mi?
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When i came to this world, i was crying, mi family and relatives were smiling. I hope, when i leave this world, mi i would be the one smiling and they would be the ones shedding tears. Life is fragile. But since we came to this world, we haf a mission to fulfill. We haf to live life to the fullest, treasuring each dae like the last. We cannot blame god for taking lives away. Because at the first place..we knew that when we come to this world there is definetly one dae we leave this place. This is juz an unfair loan frm god whereby god can take everything back anitime even though u do not want it. We smile, we laugh, we cry, these are just parts and parcels of life. Etched into mi heart, his dim white memory... ...
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These few weeks quite good..to sae...mi sales although not very high..but stil not bad. That dae mi supervisor came back frm bangkok dinner and dance, she actually bought a bracelet for mi..hehex..so good..actually these few weeks after toking more often wif her..i find her actualli not bad..she just likes to nag alot tt's all. In terms of academic, i actually managed to pass all mi supapers...=) can move on to semester 2. With kaiwen getting even better..juz celebrated our 7 mths anniversary..tt dae just went to chalet wif him..its so fun. Its organised by mi class. Aniways, gota go now..tmr stil haf to work. I'll blog nxt time and tell more abt the chalet! =)
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(Will u rmb mi?Will u?)
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