Friday, September 16, 2005
Mood report saes: worried..
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Enjoyed myself over the past few daes...and now the worry has come. Mi results would soon be released. I'm realli nervous. Or in a matter of fact, i'm worried sick. Ask mi if i had done mi best, of course i did. But doing the best doesn't mean one will pass with flying colours. In reality, not the hardworking ones will get it, but instead those that are clever. I do hate this fact..but i dun seem to haf any other choices to choose from. I always tell miself never to compare miself with others..since chinese there is a saying that goes"ren bi ren, qi si ren"..lolx. Although i never want to compare myself with the bright ones..but i always want to learn from them. I do not need their kind of flying colours. I believe everyone has their own set of flying colours. Each individuals are different. Flying colours is what i meant as limits, and exceeding this limit is what i refer to as doing the very very best. I do not know if i would do well, or should i sae, even if at the end of the dae i end up failing mi subjects..the process of working hard and striving towards the goal is most important. At the end of the dae, i haf no regrets.**********************Many people ask mi y i chose to be in this course. Or they would often ask mi y i would choose to travel so far. I always tell them i'm forced to. Its indeed this fact. I realli..never in mi life expected miself to land in this third choice of school and course. I always see myself as a business student..and never a science one. Worst still, talking about chemistry. I've totally no knowledge about this chemistry, never took this subject in secondary school life. Perhaps i would sae, i haf sum kinda fate with food..i guess. In sec 3 i chose food and nutrition instead of art. I guess from that moment on, god has already set mi destiny. In sec 1 and sec 2 i fell in love with cooking..i find the art of cooking amazing, working on each individual steps to come up with a dish, meticulously carrying out each step to garnish every parts of the dish...all these interests mi. In secondary 4, during the O's practical exams, i put in all mi efforts to prepare for the practical exam..the french cuisine...the project.My world seems to be about food and nutrition onli. At home, i would often bake cookies and make muffins..all becoz i realli enjoy baking. At times, i may feel realli tired..and find it a hassle to wash the dishes and clear up the mess after cooking, but i look at the smiles and the satisfying look of the people hu tried mi food..it seems to be a blessing. ******************In school, i would often "hang out" with the food and nutrition tcher like ms joanna lee..ms loola..spent alot of time with them..always toking about fnn. Prevously choosing the school and course..never did i expect myself to be in this food science course. Never. Perhaps, i realli haf great affinity wif food, studying about food would let mi move into deeper understanding wif food? Perhaps. Maybe. In future, i hope that i would be able to realise the dream of setting up a restaurant. Now, i juz hope to pass this three year course, and of course with mi own set of flying colours. I didnt manage to get a distinction in secondary school. Perhaps one dae, when i get mi distinctions upon graduating in temasek poly, i would go back to evergreen and gif it to ms lee since i owe her one? Hehex..**************Life has been quite peaceful the past few daes. Been baking cookies lately. And yesterdae i went to work at the luxasia office. Its a part time job actually, doing the data entry. Its realli tiring, been typing from 10 to 5..the oni time i walk away or in fact moved mi eyes from the com is when i went to eat maggie mee..after tt i went straight back to work le....its a tiring job for mi eyes..realli...mi eyes so tired..hmm..went home for dinner..den eat finish dinner le ask mi sis to go down buy ice-cream..haha..bully her..lolx...hmm..den papa mama bought mi fave bing pi yue bing for us to eat...yumyum...so nicee....keke...hmm...den last nite we watch the korean show..the "tian guo de jie ti"...so wonderful...den after tt i orh orh le lo...until juz now 10+ den woke up...ltr mayb meeting mi sotong..yeahx..=p********Lately i feel realli bad..hmm..kiong keep looking up for mi..he's been trying to date mi out..not realli date mi out..he juz want to date mi out to haf a chat..and he's often smsing mi..once i dun repy, he would ask mi y i dun reply his msg..i feel realli bad..feel realli guilty..haix. I duno how to tell him tt sotong not happi wif it..and i afraid tt he will not be happi wif it..or mayb in future he wun even kp in contact wif mi..haiz...now i realli very confused..feel like a sanwich..stucked in between..haiz..******
(sotong..i noe u very jealous...i dun wan to hurt u oso..i noe it wld be realli bad of mi if i go out wif kiong alone..sotong sorriex...but i realli duno wad to do...now u exams cuming le lo...u muz concentrate on ur studies ok? Gingerbreadger wun run away when u havin exams de..gingerbreadger will guai guai stay at home or wil pei u if u need mi..nxt time gingerbreadger will pei sotong and sotong papa and sotong mama go eat wu zhao pai...deardear..muackx..keke*)
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